I don’t want to rehash
I don’t want to live in the past
I’d rather no longer wear this worn out mask
Why GOOD LORD does it always come back?
Go the fuck away is all that I have asked
Leave me alone & let me be that outcast
Why GOOD LORD does my smile always crack?
I am the one in the corner afraid to look up
Fearful of all those that seem so very corrupt
Why GOOD LORD have I taken so much flack?
Kept in a state of fear by those who I kept near
Oh evil is as evil does never stray away my dear
Why GOOD LORD do I have these irrational fears?
In that box, to which many called a room, I suffered still
Hidden away from those that would see my ills
Why GOOD LORD am I still paying in arrears?
Never a place of safe harbor; always a test
A war zone every single day…at best
Why GOOD LORD do my fears come to tears?
Let’s take a break from all that I have harbored inside of me
Let me be free of the traumas that had been cast upon me
Let me go w/out this horrible past that follows me
Please GOOD LORD all I want is some peace & rest!!
PLEASE PLEASE STOP ALL THESE TESTS
I beg of thee…..such a simple request…….